the haps (part 2)

well the kitchen update that was planned (at least, by us) for today has been pushed back. there was a miscommunication & now the granite will be installed on sunday (cause of the mistake). and backsplash on monday. and faucet & dishwasher & disposal on tuesday. whatever. it is what it is.

3. the gym. oh...the new gym, how i love thee. mama is a MUCH better mama when she gets some alone time during the day...with music from the 'dance & dj' genre (per itunes) blaring in her headphones at a volume that is most certainly not healthy. sweating a bit. actually, who are we kidding...sweating a lot. i have such a flat learning curve...why have i not been working out for the last 4 years? i've worked out most of my life...why did i ever stop? i feel SO much better...physically, mentally, emotionally. it's good. and gusgus is doing better at childcare - he usually cries during the hand off but i haven't been paged to return before i'm ready in over a week. he's got a few of the ladies wrapped around his finger & they seem to adore him. duh, who wouldn't ;) he even naps there if he's tired! and the lu? she loves it. usually doesn't want to leave when it is time to go. she "climbs, cooks bacon, and makes things in art".

4. this is a big one. i think i'm ready to wean gus. i started doing one bottle of formula a day (he gets it at the gym...convenient, right?) a few weeks ago, and now i'm up to two. next week i'll go to nursing him just once a day. and then however many times he eats a night. right now it's two times but i'm not making my almost 9 month old bottles in the middle of the night. he's old enough to get what he needs during the day so he'll just have to change his habits when when the mama milk runs out. i'd always planned that i'd nurse him for a full year, but i'm finding i have a huge need to own my body right now...and i didn't anticipate that. i think it's the working out. he's had it for 18 months, so i'm trying not to feel too selfish about wanting it back. one of my favorite motherhood phrases is what's good for mama is good for baby...so i'm just going to keep going with what feels right. and what feels right at the moment is taking control back and owning this nearly unrecognizable body.

5. the lu is rockin school these days. sure she often says she doesn't want to go (but she never wants to go anywhere), but yesterday she actually told me she wanted to go to school or to the gym. apparently i wasn't as entertaining as usual ;) her goofball sense of humor is in full force these days as she picks up things from other kids. it is weird to have her being influenced by things outside our home. singing songs i don't know, saying things i didn't teach her...it is very strange for me...yet somehow i know the time is right for her to gain some independence. but strange, nonetheless. we've thrown a LOT of change at her in a pretty short time, and she's done really well it. i'm very proud of my pea.

6. i realized the other day i've finally gotten used to having two kids. i actually waited to pick up luci from school to go grocery shopping with both of them rather than go with just gus. we are at some strange point (maybe with gus having more mobility?) where having them both out somewhere is actually easier than being at home. at home gusgus follows the lu around while she taunts (sometimes intentionally, sometimes not) him with things that he can't play with. either because he'd choke or because she doesn't want him to 'mess it all up'. and to say she's usually a bit too rough with him would be an understatement. i need to figure out a new tactic to deal with the too rough behavior because what i'm doing isn't working. suggestions?

i think that's about it. overall i'm pretty happy with our new 'busier' schedule. and i'm super glad the carroon drama is over. and will be even happier when the kitchen is done! stay tuned for some before & after photos!