WHAT?!?!? 114 DAYS?

this pregnancy is FLYING by. 114 days? holy moly.

we're back from a trip to indiana to visit grandma & grandpa pierse. the kids travelled as well as we could have hoped, but i'm glad to be home.

my dearest, oldest bff jen is on an airplane right now so she can come hang for the weekend. SO EXCITED.

so, more to come next week!

life is full

seriously clay, can you believe we've been parents for almost 4 years?!?!

high five, my love :) i think that deserves a date night. go us. birthday loot from the rosonke side...
crafting in the new craft (yet currently still chaos) room.

and what post would be complete without a few of the many faces of my boy.
bashful...
i'm blessed.
life is full of lots of wonderful things that are proving to be all consuming.
namely my family & my new home.

seriously, could a girl ask for any more? not this one.

i need to blog about the lu's various birthday parties (officially 4 this coming Monday) and g's month notes for the last, um, too many to count months. i have photos :) thinking i'll post all at once come 19 months next week. geez, a 4 year old & a 19 month old. and an unborn 23-weeker.
i might get down in the daily tears & never ending tasks from time to time...
but i'm a grateful girl i tell ya.

spent.

i'm so spent i couldn't really even think of a title. i was thinking, 'i can't even think of a good title. i'm just spent'. so there you have it. i'm officially spent.


the house staging, packing & unpacking while continuing to mother my unborn, my toddler, & my drama filled incredibly emotional & suddenly insecure nearly four year old, not to mention an attempt at wife-ing (i'm fully aware that isn't the right word. or really even a word at all, but again, i'm spent) has taken its toll. i have nothing emotionally to give anyone except the occasional tears (to which luci asks me why i'm talking like a baby...i think because we tell her only babies cry, big girls use words?) and physically i'm beyond drained. i'm not sleeping well (that nausea/heartburn combo) and i know that is only making everything seem harder than it is.


in other news, yesterday was my last day as a gainfully employed professional. almost 12 years exactly. i started on july 7, 1999 at arthur andersen in chicago, and finished on july 15, 2011 at fifth third bank (in chicago...appropriately enough). i'm more emotional about this than i thought i'd be, and i'm having a hard time articulating those emotions. i'd like to. but again, i'm just too spent for the kind of cathartic thought and writing this seemingly momentous event requires & deserves.

the lu had one of her 4th birthday party celebrations today...the one with her friends as 'the craft place'. it went well for the most part, but it was a long day. more to come on that later. not sure why i'm so surprised at her fragile emotional state given my own. i'm certain they are connected.

i left my wallet at the grocery store after paying for her cake this morning. and didn't realize it until 5:30p. i'm grateful for the person who turned it in, untouched.

yep. that's about all i have in me at the moment.

i'm grateful for so many things. and i haven't forgotten how blessed i am. i swear. i'm just spent.

perks...

i'm not going to lie & say the move has been easy...quite the contrary...but we are exploiting the perks for all they are worth...

the first being that we spend a.LOT of time in our new (much larger) backyard. i love the paver stones that keep the bugs down & the new comfy chairs to sit in. the kiddos love the space, the play structure, the plastic pool the previous owners left, and the kai lan sprinkler. i do my best to keep them inside until 4ish (when the shade takes over), then we head out until dinner. sometimes we play after dinner too, like we did this day. in our clothes. they thought it was super cool. sometimes they are so easily pleased... i love it. next time nothing pleases them (which i'm sure will be soon) i'm going to remember this...

we paint with wet chalk...in our big girl panties.

g practices opening & closing the screen door...

while lu dumps buckets of water on our potted plants.

the new 'play constructor' as the lu calls it.

i think she's confused about us calling it a 'play structure'.

our pool & waterslide...

g spends a.LOT of time getting in & out of this car.

as my ever-wise mama friend amanda said, there are a lot of start up costs

(actually she probably didn't say costs...but the economics major in me turned it into a cost/benefit, ROI type of analysis...cuz that's how my brain works)

but the long term quality of life benefits life far outweigh this initial investment. it is a TON of work right now for clay & me getting everything settled, furnished & paid for.

but in the long run i know we are making a good investment.

i just might need to write that on my hand so i don't forget in the meantime.

grammy

joined us for nearly two weeks over the move. bless.her.heart. she came down on her 54th birthday...but i couldn't find the #4 candle to save my life, so we improvised.

we made her cake the day before :)
somebunny likes cake...

yum, yum!

seriously, i can't thank you enough mom.
thanks for always being there when i need you.

speaking of needing you...
can't wait to have you back in november (or before if you are up for it ;)!

well, we survived

the move. thanks mostly to grammy (my mom), and 3 very strong able bodied 20 something moving men.

the movers estimated it would take about 5-7 hours to move us, and it ended up taking a full 10. how/why do we have this much stuff and where in the world did it come from?!?! and i thought moving as newlyweds was hard...sheesh...it's got nothin on moving a family of 4 still saving baby things until we become a family of 5! and it was only 3 miles away! and we made several car trips in addition to our big giant box truck that made two trips. it feels like we've already filled up the extra nearly 1000 square feet & the garage...ugh.

gus had a very rough night the first night we moved in. he took about a 30 minute nap in the morning in his stroller, and that was it. by 5:45p he was totally out..but he was filthy from being outside all day so i had to dunk him in the bathtub...you can imagine how well that went. poor thing. he slept great...till 1:30a...then he was awake until 4AM!! even with benadryl! just looking around his room, talking (eyes, eyes, ear, belly belly belly) kickin his legs...ugh. the lu stayed down once she was in bed, but she didn't settle down in her room until well past 9p. since then it's gotten better each night, so knock on wood maybe we'll all sleep through the night tonight (ha!).

tallulah (our outside-only cat) seems to be fine...she loves the new big backyard. milo takes off pretty much all day & night, coming back just once or twice a day to make sure we are still here & to eat. interestingly enough he doesn't want anything to do with being inside, even though he used to spend pretty much all day everyday on our bed or luci's bed. i don't really care as long as he stays around & still wants to be our cat...inside, outside or a combo, he can pick.

my mom arrived last sunday (6.26...her birthday! happy birthday!) and has seriously made the entire thing possible. she packed a TON of things for us & happily watches the kiddos whenever we ask...and many times even when we don't. she's kept us sane & on good behavior. she & gus are thick as thieves...it is pretty funny to watch them interact. the lu is having a pretty rough time with the move & is a whiny mess most of the time...but i know she's still enjoying her grammy time because she kept asking why grammy didn't come to the parade with us today (because it's 100 degrees here all the time).

we've still got a TON of unpacking & getting settled to do, but i've got the kitchen & the coat closet (shoes, backpacks, lunchboxes, etc), and living room functional so we can have some sense of normalcy. i'm trying hard to contain the chaos to just a few rooms (my craft room...yes, i have my own craft room/office-woohoo, and what will be the baby's room) while we live & get settled on the side. i'm finding the 'settling' much more difficult with two kids who crave/need attention & a sense of normalcy. and for that reason priority #1 is now their rooms and their toy room. lu's room just needs a bit more unpacking & finishing touches, but g's room is still half pink, half brown and is in desperate need of finishing touches. and the playroom needs some new shelves, and is still totally packed up. so yeah, i got lots to do.

on that overwhelming note, i'm going to watch some evening news & get some sleep!

ps...did i mention that before we even moved in the lu threw up spaghetti in 3 rooms and i spilled a gallon of quiver tan paint on g's bedroom floor? all on our freshly cleaned CARPET? um, yeah. thanks to this man, all is still well. he returned my panicked emergency call and came over within a few hours to save the day. can't recommend him enough!

pps...happy 4th of july. a grateful thanks to all of our brave men & women (and their families) in the armed forces!

home

as of this week, is starting to look like this.

on saturday, july 2nd, all of our belongings will find their way over & make it official.

since april 28, 2006, home has looked like this.

i love this house. our home. five years later we've picked out every doorknob, light fixture, and cabinet pull. i love this house so much so, in fact, that when i unexpectedly met a potential buyer (who turned out to be offer #3, executed contract #2) i started to cry telling her how much i loved it here. good thing i could blame it on being pregnant. but the dear sweet woman gave me a hug & started to get teary too.

they feel like the right people to me. i hope they are. if we do make it to closing i'll feel good about our house having a lovely new family. and i'll have done well by my cottage green peeps, who from the beginning helped make this house our home.

getting weepy again. time for bed i think.

18 weeks

18 weeks...here i am.
hardest pregnancy to do date...still nauseous on any given day, with heartburn on the off days. my energy level is usually pretty good though, gotta love the second trimester. the weeks & months are FLYING by! i went to my ob on thursday & our sweet second son is as healthy as we can know him to be at this point :) he's estimated to weigh about 8 ounces. he kicks me a lot. i'm not complaining.

hmm. other notes?
all i want to eat are cheeseburgers.
i have round ligament pain, like all.the.time.
i'm having a hard time sleeping.

i think that's it for now...off to bed.

father's day

my LOVES on fathers day...

we went to church, hung out, had to wake up gus to leave the house for a showing, hit the pool, the kiddos melted, we went to outback for dinner, and put the kiddos to bed!

my love, you are an amazing father and we are SO lucky to have you!

another brother on the way

it has been confirmed...another brother is on the way!!

according to our ultrasound tech our lil guy is quite cooperative & photogenic...and not at all modest or bashful...we got quite a few shots of his boy parts!!

we saw the four chambers of the heart & his little spine :)

luci is excited to have another little brother...she seems to have already forgotten that she wanted a sister.

now we just have to figure out a name for the handsome lil man!

steel trap

last night the lu wanted to bring her strawberry shortcake doll into the bath with her. sure, yeah, whatever i say. but strawberry's dress gets wet when gus grabs her before we were able to disrobe her, and the lu is VERY distraught that strawberry won't have any pjs to wear. then she says, 'ah ha!' and tells me that she'll just put strawberry's other outfit on her.

now can't remember when for sure strawberry came to live with us, but it has been quite awhile, and i've only ever seen her in one outfit...the very same one that was wet. so i ask lu about the outfit, and she tells me it's a small one. i still have ZERO idea what she is talking about. i ask her where it is, she says she's not sure, but she thinks its downstairs in 'the white thing'. um, okay, i say. i tell her she can go find the outfit while i put gus down for the night.

when i finish with gus the lu is still downstairs & just super duper distraught. i still think this supposed other outfit doesn't exist. i tell her so with a gentle, but firm 'it's time for bed so please stop stalling' kind of voice. she responds with a VERY genuine 'but mama, the easter bunny brought it for me.' oh, that's right i think...the easter bunny did bring strawberry. and i didn't remember that part, so maybe there is another outfit? i talk her into coming upstairs, and then she decides to check in her bench for the outfit.

and sure enough...what does she pull out? an old white baby wipe container, that now holds 2 rapunzel skirts and...you guessed it...strawberry's other outfit. a short lil dress. the girl's memory is like a steel trap.

just cuz

a few shots of pure joy...

but mostly shots capturing our everyday crazy...

my poor blog is suffering these days. just back from vacation, 1 month of work left to document the last 6 years of my career for my poor boss, 17 weeks pregnant, two kiddos under four to entertain in 100+ degree weather (we swim. A.LOT.), regularly showing a house, thinking and stressing but not yet doing anything about moving in two weeks...aside from calls moving utilities, cable...which, btw...it took me an hour just to do cable yesterday...leaves me without much energy left to post on my blog at night. which is sad, because in a few years when my memory inevitably fades i'll wonder about how we made it through this time.

oh, and the new house is officially ours. closing was on june 6th. went very smoothly, really. did i already post about that? what was that i said about my memory fading in a few years? guess i don't need to worry about that...it's too late! i'm already there!

vacation for mom = mom-cation

the view from our pool...
my baby sister baylee graduated from the university of iowa in may, with a b.b.a. in economics...she graduated with highest distinction. meaning rockstar A++ grades. yay baylee!! what does this mean for me? why a graduation vacation!!

my mom, my sisters and i are currently on the island of grand caymen. at a two bedroom condo on the beach. well, technically i think it is called 'oceanside', but close enough to beach front for me!

my peas are home with their dad & grandma & grandpa pierse, who were kind enough to come down. my sweet husband sold his soul to his jobs to get enough days off in a row that i could come. so i won't be seeing him much the rest of the month. and while i'll miss him, i'm grateful for his sacrifice. it was a lot of me to ask...leaving during the crazy home selling process...staging a home & keeping it spotless is not an easy task...not to mention the taking care of our two needy children for days. i am grateful. thank you sweet man.

and of course i'm thoroughly enjoying my time off from everyday duties and time with my mom & sisters. i'm lucky...i really, really enjoying spending time with them...and what better place than on vacation at the beach! we've been lounging in the sun, doing lots of reading & talking & even some eating & drinking. fun times, fun times!

brown bear, brown bear

what do you see?

i think i see lil boy parts looking at me...

clay & i went in for our 16 week appointment today. our ob's ultrasound is not super high tech, but i recognized the above shot from one we had done just under 2 years ago.

it looks familiar, no? this bottom photo is gus. from the 18 week high tech ultrasound...the one that we'll have in less than two weeks for the new pea. our ob made us promise not to go out & buy any lil boy things...but she said her money is on a boy.

just please don't say anything around the lu yet...we aren't telling her until we find out for sure on the 20th. she has her heart set on a sister, which she wants to name lil flower. we've started to gently prep her for the possibility of another brother...and when we said, 'you know lu, it could be ANOTHER lil brother. you could have TWO lil brothers! what would you think of that?' she replied, 'well, THAT'D be SOMETHING!' she also decided we might want to call him lil clock...



oh boy oh boy!! stay tuned for confirmation!

100 dollars

so a few hours after i wrote that last post we received a call from our realtor with a full price offer. closing 7/7...which was perfect since we take possession of our new house on 6/30. they wanted the fridge & the master bedroom curtains (we had excluded them). done.

the story of the buyers seemed a bit strange, but we didn't think too much of it. seemed maybe only mrs. buyer had seen the house, but it was another military family so we felt a bit of a connection to the fact that the husband was in the field & unavailable. the inspection was scheduled for friday at 12p, and they wanted a second showing from 10a-12p. i thought that was a bit strange given they had the house from 12p-3p for the inspection.

fast forward to 11:30a on friday & i get a voicemail from my realtor saying he needs to talk to me about the contract. uh oh, i thought. yep. sure enough, mrs. buyer was having second thoughts. it turns out that only mrs. buyer's family had seen the house - and she put in the offer based on their advice. so friday was the first time she'd seen it. and she decided it was too small.

awesome.

clay & i had never expected to get full price, so we had done lots of spending that extra money in our heads all week. back to the reality of an uncertain period of double mortgage payments looming.

oh, and what do we get for our trouble? for our 5 days of having a house basically off the market? $100. cause in texas $100 buys you a 10-day option period. great as a buyer, but a small consolation as a seller.

state of the pierses

we are all hanging in there! i've been VERY preoccupied trying not to throw up while keeping the house spotless in the event of a last minute showing request!

so here is an executive summary state of the union update...

the house. our lovely home is for sale. i swear the more i think about living somewhere else the more i love it. it is like part of our family. i mean, it is our home. this house is definitely the first time as an adult that the place where i live is truly home. mom & dad's is mom & dad's. at age 33 i can say home and mean it in every sense of the word. i must be a late bloomer. anyway - as of today we've had eight showings. the first week we had six, two of which told us our home made it to their final cut. then we never heard from them again. then a whole week went by without any showings. and this week we've had two so far. all of the feedback has been positive, but we are getting a bit more anxious with each passing day. we close on the new house on june 6th, but we are leasing back the home to its current owners until june 30th. so if everything goes according to plan we'll move in during the beginning of july.

me. well, in even more life changing news my too-good-to-be-true job is ending in mid-july. i'm probably the only financial analyst in history to have left a full time job managing people to going to full time telecommuting at the same salary, to a measly telecommuting 10 hours a week...ANY 10 hours i want mind you, at an hourly rate of my 2006 handsome annual salary. 28 of us have had our positions eliminated but we were encouraged to apply for one of 9 new positions opening at headquarters. full time, of course. so after much discussion & number crunching, clay & i have decided i will soon be gainfully unemployed by choice. full time employment for me at this time is just not ultimately what we want for our family right now. this topic probably has a whole other post worth of things to say.

clay. he's working working working, planning & number crunching. the third time in i've realized that this is his dad nesting thing. ya know, the one that happens with the realization that another human being will soon be depending on him for financial support for the next 18 years + college. he takes it very seriously, and while i love that about him, it bums me out a bit that it puts so much stress on him. and obviously it is multiplied by the fact that a-we are about to take on a larger mortgage b-without my income and c-with the possibility of two mortgages looming for some indefinite amount of time. it's a lot. thank goodness the house has been spotless...it is about all i can do for him at this point.

the lu. she's feisty as ever but has started talking/whining/crying like gus. a lot. it kinda drives us crazy. all of her little friends have turned 4 and she's quite upset that she's still 3. like really upset. so being the manipulative mom i am, i'm using this to my advantage. 'lu, did you know 4 year olds don't drink out of sippy cups? if you want to be 4 you better start practicing your big girl drinking!' 'lu, that didn't sound like the way a 4 year old asks/talks. can i hear you say it again like a 4 year old?'. she takes it all very seriously, and so far it is working. we'll see how long it lasts. yet all that said, she's getting so big, right before our eyes. i can't believe she IS almost four! how in the world did that happen! one more year of preschool & then she's in KINDERGARTEN. dude. it brings me to tears just typing it! but i am pregnant ;)

the goo. after his double ear infection & a round of clindamycin he developed a rash. last dose of meds on thursday. woke up friday covered in spots. ugh. that said, he's the happiest he's been in months!!! and dad is his new favorite playmate. he's a talking fool and i could just eat him up most of the time. more to come on his 17 month notes.

the newpea. 14 weeks today. sweet baby. making me the sickest of all of my kids. i'm hoping we'll do the big ultrasound at the end of june so we get results before the best ob-gyn in the world heads to india for three weeks in july. i don't go back until the second week of june...unless i just can't wait...then they are so sweet they let me come in just to have an ultrasound to calm my nerves. why? cause she's the best ob-gyn in the world!

dress up

it never gets old...

her best disney princess poses...

and not to be left out...

so um, 15 month photos...

so yeah, 2 months late, here is the boy at 15 months. excuse the poor quality...they were captured on my cell phone. he was a VERY unhappy boy around this time. teeth? ears? phase? not sure. but he was very unhappy, and that about sums up 15 months-ish.